I ventured out to other avenues looking and let me say that after that experience i trully appreciate and am gratefull to the pros who belong to this community. I've had amazing times and lifelong memories because of the real Adults and pros in this community. So, thank you. As i ponder a long term hiatus, i will never look back at my time on this board with any guilt or shame. Sorry for rambling. Off to my shrink now. Be good.