He is not worth holding on to the pain. Learn to let him go. When your hurting from others who have hurt you, and upset you open up your body too vulnerable diseases. No man or anyone is worth your health. Your destiny is never tied to anybody who left. You dont need him in your life. When people can walk away from you, let them walk. I know it's not easy. Cry it out, exercise it out, when your done, wash your face and kiss him good by. Learn to put yourself first and dismiss him from your heart. The gift of good by is powerful. Make the choice to love yourself first and let him go. Holding on to him with cause unnecessary pain and you'll become bitter. You have no room in your life for chickens. Lol
Put you first, take the time out for you, work on you. When your ready to move on, a better man will come along. You'll look back and think.... WTF was I thinking!
Love yourself first.